GRACE

Being a part time working mom with a 30 min commute, I often prepare dinner for then next day, the evening before. E gets home before me and this way, it's easy for him to just heat something up to have ready when I make it home with the little ones.

Last night, by the time the kiddies were in bed and dinner was cleaned up, it was getting late. And it was 105 outside and that itself is draining. I was tired and feeling grumbly already. My inner grumbles increased as I went about preparing tonight's dinner. Having already altered the recipe to make it gluten free, when it was time to add the daiya cheese, I had a little moment because I seriously felt like I was just sick of fake cheese, food allergies and "ahhhh this isn't fair!"

I fired off a status on facebook about said fake cheese and immediately felt like a sham. I spend so much time pretending that I have a supermom symbol under my clothes. I can cook allergy friendly meals from scratch, while crafting, doing experiments with the kids and don't forget exercising and keeping the house tidy, while surviving on very little sleep. See my smile and positive attitude, because I AM SUPERMOM. Riiight.

Before I could remove my status, I was graced with kind words from friends and family. So I chose to give myself a little grace too.

I'm learning it's okay to step back from being the encourager and allow myself to be encouraged. Most of the time, I do sincerely see food allergies as a blessing to us. However, when I don't, there's no need to feel guilty. Thankfully, God's grace is new every morning and I have my positive pants back on today.

And really, I'd gladly eat fake cheese forever in return for my three amazing beautiful blessings.