It's not so much about me.

What bothers me more than anything is how all of this effects the two main guys in my life, Eric and Kelton.

Kelton is the sweetest boy and loves his baby sister more than anything. He sings to her, plays with her and wants to help in anyway he possibly can. It breaks my heart that I'm unable to have the quality time with him that we used to have. I hate that when she doesn't cry for 30min, he's super excited, "Wow, Mommy, Katie isn't crying." It sucks that we're unable to go places and do things like before because, well, Katie crys all the damn time. And worst of all, how it worries him to see Mommy crying because of it all.

Eric unknowingly became a father 1/23/04 when Kelton was born. When we started dating in the fall of 2005 everything just fit into place. He's always been great with Kelton and I'll never forget how excited he was when we found out we were going to have a baby. Since Kelton was older when Eric came around, this has been his first experience as a father to a baby and while he loves her to pieces, I just hate that he knows nothing else than a baby that crys nonstop. It's not supposed to be like this.